Clean.

So here it is, 2:16pm on a Tuesday late afternoon.
I'm sitting here at home on my day off.

And just like every other day off I plan my day accordingly...I make plans and I break the plans. Instead of waking up early and following through with errands...I sleep in and end up waking up naturally. Wishing I woke up at a decent hour in the morning. I do some mundane errands around the apartment, Like washing the dishes, doing the laundry, and clearing the expired foods in the cabinets. Never mind that its the holidays and I really should be on task for any last minute stocking stuffers, gifts, and prepping Christmas cards to be sent out. But the past months has been filled with work. Working a lot and working odds hours that has made the rest of this year exhausting. I never feel rested for a new day and I never feel I've accomplished much because of that exhaustion and not feeling up to doing the things that I want to do.

I haven't been sleeping well at all. I have all these ideas and goals that haven't been put to light, just sitting at the back of my brain, playing over and over in my mind as I try to sleep at night. A few months back I decided to get a journal to document why I can't sleep. And I know for a fact that only I am to blame because I allow myself to give up when I'm too tired or when something feels to complicated. So then projects of mine get started but they are never finished, and so they just sit. Sit for months just like the material things that I have come to accumulate over the years. The things that I have purchased in hopes to make myself happy, only its just temporary. And so they sit. Collecting dust, never seeing the light of day again.

These past months I've been trying to change that. Trying to get back on track. I'm the type of person that has to rely on things to motivate me, whether its watching someone on YouTube clean up their space, or looking at photos on Pinterest to give myself ideas where to start. All the elusiveness probably has you wondering, where the heck am I going with this? I basically felt myself drowning in chaos. Whether its at home, in thoughts, or at work. I've come to find that I'm letting myself get to a point where I don't care. In most cases, that is a wonderful idea. In my case, I've been needing to do major clean up. Because like I've said...I've let things go but I've let things pile. I've let material things clutter up my closet, my workspace, my kitchen....But I'm in the process of getting this clean.

I want to live simple.

The older I get, the more I am realizing there are so many things I don't need, I have never needed, and that I wasted money on buying (especially since I haven't used quite a bit of things). I started reading the book, The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up by Marie Kondo. I had heard wonderful things about when I was searching of ways to start cleaning or how to declutter. Though I'm not quite doing it the way the book suggests, I've recently started to clean areas of my life and starting to think in ways that I should have a long time ago.

In conclusion, I wanted to document my journey through the KonMari method of cleaning. So I hope that in my sharing this, it will help you as well if you are trying to declutter your surroundings and Life. And with that being said, my journey will be in full gear for the new year. So I hope for greater opportunities and less clutter.

xo, J.

Fresh.

Today starts a new streak for inspiration and motivation. I have definitely been lacking it a lot in that department lately. But with the help of my sister, Mary Ann. I have acquired a brand new, beautiful tech toy to explore and play with. As it turns out a long while back my laptop basically died. Not completely but with the lack of updates and funds to actually fix it, it was basically as dead as a laptop can get. I couldn't even log in to my profile because it said there was missing files and it couldn't load correctly. 

After just receiving my new laptop yesterday evening, I seriously felt I've been missing out on a lot of opportunities and well, just working technology to begin with. So CHEERS to a brand new leaf. I've just been spending my time getting to know this new beauty and basically personalizing it to fits my needs and to my liking. BOY IS IT EVER SO DISTRACTING. Haha. I've been on a cleaning streak lately and well, after I decided to write this post I sat down and have been playing with the laptop since.

So in conclusion, CHEERS TO A NEW LAPTOP, I feel blessed that my sister willingly decided to help me. And I feel the inspiration to due some well overdue justice by updating a lot of my accounts and finally being able to update my Photography website that had been at a stand still since my old laptop died. I've also got a lot of others things to do but I'll talk about that at another time.

Until next time :)

Yours Truly, Jennifer.