My Father.

Last night as I was headed to bed when my brother gave me a call. I thought it was an unusual time to be calling but didn't think anything of it... That is, but until I immediately listened to his voice mail. He said, "Hi Jenny, Dad is in the Hospital..." I didn't even listen to the rest as I was in shock. It was late and I needed to rest.

It was 5:48am this morning when my mind began to race again. What happened? I remember I sent a couple text messages before I headed to bed. This morning I saw the responses, "Dad had a stroke" "Dad had a heart attack" "Dad collapsed and he's in the hospital.". It was reality and I'm still in shock. I tried to go about my morning. I was headed into work early to get the rest of my work done. Oh work.

As I pulled into my work's parking slot, I took a deep breath in and out. I could do this, I had to do this, I have to keep busy... I went in clocked in and sat at my desk, ready to start my routine (deep breathes in and out) and then my coworker came to ask me how my morning was going. All I could really do is respond honestly and I burst into tears. I was trying so hard to keep busy and be strong, sooner or later everyone wS asking me... I was jittery and couldn't concentrate. And my boss kindly sent me home.

When I got home, it was quiet. I sent a text to my husband and changed back into home clothes. I laid on the couch for two hours before realizing how hungry I was. I sat at the dinner table and called my brother and cried. My dad is in the hospital, back in my home state of California (as I'm 740 miles away from home), in an induced state of coma, sleeping in hopes of recovery and there's nothing I can really do.

The rest of my day went as followed:
- Finally ate something, instant noodle soup to be exact.
- Sat quietly contemplating about Life.
- Talked to my eldest sister (for 2 hours, trying to lighten the mood).
- Vacuumed the Abode.
- Laid down, quietly reading a book until the hubby got home.
- Hubby came home and I began to cry again.
- We sat for a good hour I'd say talking. Well, me talking about my dad and life...
- Tried to take a nap.
- My brother and sister called to update me on my dad's status.
- Finally exhausted myself and napped for a half hour.
- Cooked Curry Dinner with the hubby and ate.
- Watched a bit of TV.
- Bed by 8pm...

And here I lay, typing this up on my phone. I just had to document, to share, to explain. I've been worried and crying all day... And now I just want to feel hopeful. Hopeful that might dad will fight his way through. He's not ready to go... I'm not ready for him to go. God please hear my prayers.

My Dad is expected to be awoken tomorrow, he needs a heart defibrillator to live better.

Update soon......

Farewell Tumblr.

I closed my tumblr account a couple days ago for good. I opened it a year or so ago because it was the easiest way to share blogs, videos, links, photos. I spent more time on there than here. But it slowly and surely became predictable. Posting/Reblogging photos of fashion, quotes, and memes. It became less personal and more of a trend. It became boring.
I stopped going on there and making posts and finally gave in to completely deleting it when I found out that someone decided to hack it...twice!!! Seriously?? Why don't people make their own account? Yeah well,so deleted it went. Goodbye Tumblr, I am officially over you.

The Infrequent Blogger.

I've always enjoyed the concept of blogging. An online journal for sharing your thoughts, opinions, dreams. Being able to say things that are easier written (or in this case, typed) than said. Sharing photos and memories. Its easier said than done.

With today's trends less really is more. Just look at tumblr and twitter. And its always a "like" ..."love"..."hate"... reply, retweet, repost ...RE -something! All personal touches are out the door. All extended conversations are acronyms.

Before I get sidetracked (though I think I already did), as much as I would like to blog everyday...or even every other day...or one a week! I never seem to find time to be as consistent with making posts here but I enjoy reading other blogs. When real Life doesn't take over:-) So if you find yourself wanting to see what I'm up to, view my links to my other creative outlets and of course...you can find me on Instagram:-D

Oh how I love life!!!

03 Apr 2012; Instagram for Android released!!!

Never felt so good to log back in;-)

As a former iPhone user, this is the only thing I've missed. I feel complete:-D

Follow me on Instagram: rarebliss

Mall Day; Sephora & H&M

My husband took me to the mall today! We had lunch at our favorite place in the food court and I also got to stop in to use my giftcards he had given me for Christmas at my favorite stores.

I'm a happy camper (^_^).

Snowed In.

Screen Capture from My phone<3

Oh you know, just freezing cold and SO MUCH SNOW... No biggie:-/

Currently:
- Under 3 Pretty Damn Thick Layers of Blankets
- Running the apartment Heater
- Wearing sweatpants, hoodie, and fuzzy socks
- Trying to stay warm
- Trying to get back to sleep

TO DO:
- Stay warm
- Stay healthy
- Stay hydrated
- Think of what to cook for dinner tonight;-) 

Snow Fall 2012.

2011 was a great year...less rain, no snow. And then fast forward to the New Year. First snowfall was two days ago. Its still not enough to stick and despite the fact that I have no motivation to drive in it....Its still beautiful;-)

01 January 2012; Cake Pops.

I told my coworker last week that I was going to make Cake Pops today...the first day of the year (mainly because my husband will have finally be able to have chocolate again to be a taste tester! Long story.....)...and I have! I'm quite excited.

I think I've done exceptionally well for my first try;-)

It was a lot easier than I had thought it to be. And I just love them ever since I've tried one;-)

What are you up to today???

31 December 2011, Last Day of the Year.

2011...had so many amazing opportunities for my husband and myself. I feel very blessed for all the time we've spent together, making up for all those times the military had him away from home. I had the most amazingly epic adventures with my friends who came up to visit...I overcame plenty of obstacles in my decisions and life...

Overall, this year was one of the greatest and challenging years of my life.

I'm so ready for more.
2012,
Lets do this!!!